makes a difference.
I think I was PMSing and felt just in a funk yesterday but I have great friends and I texted B in Dublin and she called me and we talked about I told her about my boy troubles and my hottie with a sexy ankle bracelet, I know I did not spill the beans on this story. We talked about me coming to see her and I just felt so much better after words. I went out with L and I thought it would be few drinks until 6pm outing and I ended up coming home at 4am.
I posted activity partners ad on CL and this guy emailed me, I do keep a folder with all the people that ever emailed me so I did find his email MarkSF from September and mentioned that but he ignored it, I meet this guy around his hood and it is self centered Indian guy. Why the hell do you call yourself Mark?
Then he guy asks me to drive him home! and tells me how to get back. I have been in SF for 10 years for 10 years, I think I know how to get home and he takes my candy for my Lyft driving.
Im swearing off CL.
I went to the gym this morning, I did 30min of intervals and I did arms but only used by body weight.
I could not stop eating in the office and now I am pms-ing so I ate two persimmons, clementine, pistachios and two bananas and read about this Australian designer that is pregnant and eats only 80/10/10 vegan food and some times about 10 bananas in one day….I can do that too. I will add some homemade peanut butter and cocoa powder and maybe honey…so good.
Damn, my tummy hurts :(
6 years ago today I was hired by CFS and it became more then just a job, I started as a very green case manager and now feel so comfortable doing my job and welcome the challenging families.
The people that I have met here is what really I am grateful for and dear to my heart. Few of them became very close friends of mine and they became my family while by blood family lives 3000 miles away from me.
Thank you all for being there for me threw my ups and downs, it means the world to me. xoxo
DD from last night
Not a very good night….too many car out there, first night that I had to wait for customers and this last one …I drove her like 5 blocks. Not worth it. I think I will do it tomorrow in the morning instead. This morning was good and steady and people tried to get to work on time and I pick up this guy Bartek, Polish but spoke with very heavy accent. so cool.
I went out on a date from CL yesterday, I was really reluctant and wanted to cancel at the last min but didn’t. I decided to go to the Leany College Flea Market, the one that the last time I went with A. I checked-in via yelp and we walked to Lake Merritt and walked around like the last time I did with A. We sat down in front of the walk fountain and he was being very sweet and my phone went off, it was D and for some reason I checked my email and there it was…an email from A. Hi how are you, I still work 14 hours per day email. I am on a date with this guy that is sweet, little bit of a bad by but nice guy that is looking at me with a big smile and is caring my bag for me and my ex decides to email me for the first time in 4 months at that moment. Fucken strange.
I did not email him back, I do not know what to say to him.
I started to dive my car for lyft last week and the $ is good but I realized that I was caring my entire bag with all my docs with me so I decided to sop doing that especially at night so tonight I leave the house with my ID, registration and insurance car and my last lyft asks me to take him to Oakland. Thank God for S, I texted her and she gave me $ but then while talking with her I realized that I have a quarter pouch in my car and when I counted to had $5.55 in quarters int here.
I swam half a mile with P on Sunday and this woman is inspirational, she is fit and looks incredible and she told me that I need to loose my chub :) so I need to start to so my intervals at the gym so I did this AM at the gym. I went on the ecliptic machine and I did 4 min reg pase and 1 min as fast as I could and I sweated so much and was so much more tired then ever before. I want less wiggle.
I started lyft today, I finally got my pink mustage and after work I deiced to give it a try and I work back to back for three hours, I picked up 6 people. Most it is girls and they are super nice. It is interesting to get to know all these people. I like it. I want to do more. I just want to see how much I am going to get paid, I want more than $20 per hour.
I received an email from tumblr that I have been missing in action sop I wanted to say a quick hi. I am alive and just been preoccupied by …dating. I have been going on all these dates and having fun meeting new people but I am not getting married any time soon. Most of my dates were meeting interesting people, one guy would not stop touching me during our first date but he drank a lot becasue he was nervous so what I thought and then when I went out on the second date he did the same this and I had to walk out of his car. My new female friend P called him Mr. Touchy , I thought she was very generous. I wanted to call him more of a creep.
Started to go to the gym and found an app that counts my steps, running and biking so I have been using it and I love it, it is called moves.
More later :)
I have been using food to feel better, I feel lonely and food makes me feel good. I don’t like that I don’t feel complete without a relationship now . I was single for so many years and I was totally ok with tat but after A and experiencing good nature relationship that came very easily that I took fit granted and now that is over, I feel alone and I don’t want to be alone. He was a person that I couldn’t count on and a man that made me feel wonderful eventho I was scared and wanted to be with friends and do my own thing and now that I can, I’m not happy. He made me happy but I realized it too late.