Best surprise ever was waiting for me this morning when I go to work, R had flowers delivered to my office with a note that said “thinking of you everyday I am not around you, cant wait to see you again. love, R”
I bought this Granola by Emco made in Czech Republic at Grocery Outlet, it is gluten, GMO and What Free and it is amazing !!!! I am not supposed to have it right after HCG but I really cannot help myself.
I am at work ready to have lunch…oh what I will have you ask? The same thing I have been eating for the past 24 days, cabbage and beef. I think tomorrow will be my last day taking HCG and I am done and after my 72 hours I will slowly increase my calories and next the first week of April I will hit the gym and use my Krav Maga coupon and just really try to tone.
Yesterday I felt really out of it, I am not sure if it because of my diet that I am completely over or what but I felt loopy as if I did not sleep all night. I eat about 9ozs of bass last night after getting home from work because I just was so hungry. R gave me a small lecture about the side effects of this HCG diet and I know it is not good for me, but I have been trying to lose just few more pounds do I can be comfortable in size 10 pants. I bought this really nice coat on eBay and it is size M and it fits just right so if I gain few pounds, it will be too small. R is taking me to Sanoma to check out some wineries and he talked about the amazing food that is there so I will stop HCG on Sunday because I need to still keep 500 calories for 72 hours and then I can add some calories w/o starches and sugar. I am not sure if I can make it to Sunday tho, I have been to out of it.
My co-worker told me today that my ass used to look like Kim Kardashin’s ass and now, I do not even have her mom’s ass…he is right, my pants are sagging now.
The rain finally stopped and maybe we can actually enjoy St. Patties day this year. I attended this really interesting and interactive LGBTQ training yesterday, I attended three but this one is worth talking about. The presenter, T, asked the group first to say our name with a movement that fallowed and everyone had to do it, then she asked us for one minute in a group of two “what are you?” over and over again and the first time roles were fine, the second they were not allowed and the third you had to come up with someone thing that you have not said yet.
The next exercises was to put top five things that define you in this world and how people look you, I put female, white, long red red, curvy and confident/attractive. The exercises was for one of them to be taken away from me, one that would impact me the most so my co-worker took out female and I looked at the list and just felt lost for a second because if I am not a woman, what am I?
It is raining in SF and it will be for the next 7 days which is fine, I know that we need rain but we get spoiled as well living in CA. I just wish that I could be in bed with really good tea and a good book. To be honest I did that, stayed in bed until 3pm on Sunday and it was great. :)
Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man: What Men Really Think about Love, Relationships, Intimacy, and Commitment by Steve Harvey
Read it in few hours, a page turner with a sense of humor.
Profess, Provide and Protect that is what a man wants to do for his lady and you need to let him do it for you while you let him know your requirements and standards. If he loves you, he is not going anywhere.
I am off today and I am out the door to ran some errands. D slept over J’s house from Saturday until this morning so I had a really nice and relaxing weekend.
THIS IS SO MOTIVATING. I was in Costco and woman was returning Nutella and I told her that I love it but really cannot eat it and she said to me “but you are skinny.” This is a first for me and I will take !!!!
I forgot to mention that over the weekend I received a gift - a three string peal necklace from D’s girlfriend!!!! That is a first for me; i was so surprised by her gesture. Sweet.
So I have not had a good week, at the beginning of this week I was moody and just pissy and did not want to deal with people by Thursday I was better; on top of feeling moody I also had urinary track infection that started on Sunday night and the urge to pee stayed with me, it is the most annoying feeling when you think that you need to pee all the time, it feels like someone is standing on you blater. I emailed my doctor but she was out so I emailed my obgyn and she told me to get my urine tested which I had to make the trip and do that and then I did not hear from her to find out that she was also on vacation, she should have mentioned something…right? It would have been nice. So by Friday morning I was going crazy and the discomfort moved to my waist level back and I was in pain. I called my insurance and spoke with a nurse and she scheduled over the phone call with a doctor on call for 12:30 and he did not call until 12:50 and by that time I was just passing because I was in pain. R was with me and was supportive, he was massaging my back and went with me to the pharmacy. After talking with the on call doctor I was told that the urine had too much bacteria and it was inconclusive he was willing to give me the same antibiotics that I took 3 weeks ago when I had it last time but if it was different bacteria, I would be taking the wrong antibiotics and he pretty much asked me what I wanted to do. I wanted to scream at the phone “you are the doctor!!!” but told him to give me the same antibiotics and I will drop my urine again which I did. I crunchted the pill right away for faster effect and I started to feel better but the pain in my back continued. When R left at 3pm I was laying in bed in pain and I have not heard from him for hours. I called the nurse again and told her how I was feeling and she told me to take pain medication which I was not sure if I can mix with antibiotics so when I did take 800mg I started to feel myself again. I was supposed to to and see vagina monologues at the Women’s Building so I drove and was able to find parking in the Mission with in 15 min! R did not test me to see how I was feeling and I thought that was selfish of him ; at 8:30pm right before the play started I texted him and expressed that it was not cool for him to not even see how I was feeling. He text me back while my phone was off that his phone was off and he could not text me and then he had to grab his stuff and go for training. I still thought that was not cool. It does not take that long to text, “hey, how are you feeling?” 30 seconds, he could have done that walking to catch the bus. He became defense and told me that I was being unfair and when he was supposed to text me; one hour before he ;left my place? I was having a good time with the girls and did not want to get into it, if I honestly have to explain and justify feeling bothered…
I am at work but I am one hour away from my weekend so I am excited. I could not help myself yesterday yet again; overate, I had white bread with cream cheese and lots of pita chips and chocolate. I am pretty much at the same weight but I was hoping to loose some weight and be able to fit into size 10 jeans which I did but I wanted to have some space to gain few pounds here and there but I am try my best and will take one day at a time.
OMG ! I just ate so many cookies that I think I will puke; I am so mad at myself.
So since I was feeling so crappy yesterday’ O decided to have some comfort eating and had bread with cream cheese about 1/3 of a loaf so I did gained a pound and today I also was not feeling good so I left work early and went to Clement Street and bought small banana bread and inhaled it. Oh well…
I had a really crappy day and I am glad to be home. Last night I got the sensation of needing to pee all the time and woke up like 5 times and then at 5:34am was woken up yet again by 4.0 earthquake. Since I was so out of it I kept pressing the soon button and then I was running late so I had to send out an email that I will be in at 9am instead of 8am. I went to Honda to drop my car off so change my oil because I had a coupon and they game me a laundry list of things that needed to be done like brake fluids, transmission fluid, air/pollen filet and tire rotation which my coupon for $25 oil change became a joke because my bill jumped to about $369. I declined everything after talking with my dad and requested only oil change and tire rotation. I am still just not feeling it today, I needed to go to Kasier and pick up some meds but just did not have it in me so I will need to do that someone time this week. I am also over HCG and it is a lot harder second time around for me, the first time I did not have any sugar cravings and now I just want to eat warm bread with butter. On positive note I was able to sell 9 pair of jeans last night and made $130 so I guess things evened out.
I love a good bargain and I found out about this annual sale last year. On the second day of the sale which is Sunday - lots of items are %50 off. Park under the highway and just walk with the masses of people, you will see people selling various items and food on the way as well. Wear comfortable shoes and layers and while shopping you will be entertained by the announcer with various funny announces like “Larry, you are in trouble, you wife tired calling you and you did not pick up your cell phone, please meet her at the front entrance.” Last year I bought 5lbs tub of wax for $1. This year I got in excellent condition United States of Benetton blazer for $3 and scented candles for .50c and $1.
yesterday was a gorgeous day in SF and D and I were stuck inside at my job, painting offices. I did volunteer for that but I was one mad and very tired camper. I barely go home and just washed the paint off my body and hair and I had to get ready to go with R to his sister’s bday part at El Toritos which is a fancy Mexican place with life karaoke. This is place should belong in Texas; it is bog and loud and the food and drinks portions are as big and loud or enormous as the place. The karaoke machine was turn on so loud that I had to yell to try to say anything at all. It was quite crazy place that gave me a headache and we left early. Since it was a warm night, R suggested that we go to Twin Peaks and it was an excellent idea, we had my beloved city at our finger tips and it was looking stunning.
I have notice that when I do not eat, I am fine but once I out something in my mouth I get hungry which I know sounds strange but I did not eat breakfast until 10am and an hour earlier I was hungry but drank lots of eat and I was fine.
I had a relaxed day; got teeth cleaning; ready my book and hanged out with C. She lost 12 pounds already.
I relaxed by the pool for few hours reading a book after hanging out with R in the AM. It was a good day.
So it was not that bad yesterday, I had yogurt at 7am, grapefruit at 10am and lunch which was chicken and Chinese broccoli, not on protocol at noon and apple again at 3pm and dinner at 6pm which I had chicken and organic tomatoes. I think it in the evening hours gets the worst for me, I feel very loopy and just really cant think. I need to go to sleep earlier, I think that is the key to rest as such as possible.
It is raining here in Sf today and I am off work so I will just make some delicious tea and read by book. xoxo.